Craig forwarded a link to this photo of Hope that jumps out to grab you. Megan Kowalewski's comment on her Instagram photo: "Never lose hope. Well, at least this one you can't."
If You are Looking for Hope, You Will Find It
My buddy Todd loves sailing, along with just about every other kind of watercraft. So where would Todd find Hope? - A ship, of course. Thank you, Todd!
Steve's Sunrise Brings Hope
Steve sent this photo he took of Sunrise at the Oregon coast. What brings more hope than the promise of a new day?
Thank you, Steve!
Hope is in the Eye of the Beholder
Keith reminded me that hope comes in many forms. Perfect! Thanks, Keith!
Violet's Flowers Bringing Hope
Violet sent these images of hope. "If this flower can bloom on a sand dune, you can beat the record!"
“She also sent this one: “Buds in Spring - A sure sign of hope.”
Thank you, Violet!”
New CT Results, and Requesting a Little Hope
Friends and Family,
My latest CT scan results are in, and things remain spectacularly unchanged. Can you see my smile from there? :-) I feel increasing gratitude after every scan, because I can’t count on this lasting forever.
I know this because the New England Journal of Medicine just published the Phase I trial results for AZD9291 (http://www.nejm.org/doi/full/10.1056/NEJMoa1411817). The average time people stayed on the drug before their cancer started growing again was 9.6 months. If my results are average, I have a couple of months before things change. I don’t plan to be average. I’m treating the stats like you would a pole vaulting competition. Somebody has to set the record.
Ever since I ran into a guy at the LUNGevity Hope Summit who had been on Tarceva for eight years (roughly seven years longer than average – and still going), it has raised my level of hope.
How much difference can hope make? How much difference can love and support make? This is where I’m asking for your help.
Two things. First, I’m asking if you will send me your images of hope. In my last blog entry (below) I posted a couple of images of "Hope" that I found in Washington DC. I’m hoping you will help me expand that list by emailing more images to me. It makes more difference than you can imagine. As proof, those images you sent to me of light zapping the cancer and healing light a few months ago kept me (and many others) flying for months!
Second, I’m inviting you to join me for the Lung Love Run/Walk on Saturday, June 20th. My very own team, “Live Lung and Prosper,” welcomes new members and/or donations at http://bit.ly/1Kj9tbk. If you join by this Friday, June 29th, they can still guarantee you a tee shirt. After that it’s a gamble. (Sorry, it’s the real estate agent in me. Gotta create a sense of urgency.)
OK, I held back the best part of my CT scan results. It showed that my Swiss cheese hip bones and spine are turning solid again. Was this improvement caused by the AZD9291? Was it caused by the bone strengthening (Zgeva) injections combined with calcium supplements? Was it the healing light sent by y’all???
Hoping everything is going well for you, too.
Love,
Dann
Footnote: If you don’t have my email address, go to the Contact tab at the top of the page and give me your email address. I’ll reply with mine.
Hope is Where You Find It
After the LUNGevity HOPE Summit in DC last week, I was pumped. I was feeling the hope, and I still am. I even found Hope in a couple of unexpected places. First there was this:
That got me excited to look for more Hope. I found this in the Smithsonian Natural History Museum:
Hope Diamond
James Bond taught us that "Diamonds are Forever," but now you know that Hope is forever, too!
So now I'm looking for signs of Hope everywhere, and I would love to have your help. Share the Hope! Send me your pictures and I'll share the Hope with others. Be as creative about what "Hope" means as you like.
If you don't have my direct email address, click on the "Contact" tab above and email me that way. I'll email you back so you can send your photos to me.
A Little Disaster Can be a Good Thing
Friends and Family,
I spent last Friday to Sunday at the LUNGevity (lung cancer) HOPE Summit. I bet you weren’t expecting to see “Hope” and “lung cancer” in the same sentence, but there you go. That’s why we needed a summit, and it hit the spot.
I got fired up hearing about new research and treatments that are changing so rapidly that even oncologists are having a hard time keeping up. It gave me hope to meet 150 survivors, most of whom are Stage IV (spread beyond the lungs). It inspired me to find out how many of my peers are going on TV, writing articles, and organizing walks.
But that’s not my story. I thought it would be more fun to tell you about our little disaster. In a conference organized down to the minute, a tad bit of chaos erupted.
A local restaurant agreed to host us for a dinner away from our hotel. We loaded into five limo buses, with me on lucky #5.
Did I say local restaurant? The ride was so long that the natives started getting a little restless. Questions about where we were going and what state we were in popped up. Eventually, our bus pulled off the freeway. Moving slowly through an intersection, the bus weaved back and forth indecisively between lanes. The driver turned, stopped in the middle of the intersection, BACKED UP, and got back on the freeway in the other direction.
About that time, somebody spotted the driver Googling the restaurant address.
That did it. The backseat drivers couldn’t hold back any longer. At first it was one or two. But the more indecisive the driver got, the more people joined in. Soon, there were seven drivers, all telling the driver behind the wheel where to go. I get the parallels here: “Take charge of the bus before it gets out of control” looks an awful lot like, “Take control of your own treatment.”
The driver acted like he didn’t hear them.
It gets better. Bus alarms started going off, and the bus started sputtering. Fortunately, those noises were drowned out by the backseat drivers.
The front seat driver got more indecisive, weaving between lanes, taking no head of several people commanding him to pull over. A woman in a convertible passed us, first using her turn signals, and then using a hand signal not found in the Driver’s Ed book.
Katie, who has organized just about everything at LUNGevity since it has been around, got resourceful. She called the bus company, who called the driver. Problem solved? Surely you know where this is going. The driver wouldn’t answer his phone.
You would think this would be the time things would get more tense, wouldn’t you? HA! You don’t know my peeps! This isn’t even a PIMPLE on a problem. Cancer this big, bus problem this big. Ya gotta love the perspective. This is when the laughter started!
There was, however, one person who began having panic attack symptoms. She was flooded with offers to help. “I’ve got anti-anxiety medication of you need it.” “Would an antacid help?” “I’ve got just about any kind of narcotic that you might need. Name it.” As the panic symptoms start to fade, we decide that we had an entire pharmacy available on this bus, which makes us laugh even more. This isn’t a disaster, it’s an adventure!
Sputtering up a hill at half speed, the bus finally pulled off at an exit. The driver called his bus company and started talking in Spanish to his boss. This is great! Six backseat drivers, and the driver doesn’t understand any of them!
The more ridiculous it gets, the more laughter erupts. People start taking pictures. “Make a scared face.” “Eeeeeeeeee!”
Making the most of the situation, a lot of us get off the bus and admire the Camp Marcy (wherever that is) scenery. Someone suggests “I survived the bus” tee shirts, which evolves into “I survived lung cancer the bus.” At this point people are taking pictures of other people taking pictures, because everybody wants to remember this.
Then Katie, our fearless leader, breaks out the big guns. She turns it into a promo video clip: “What takes my breath away? A BUS THAT RUNS OUT OF GASSSSSS!” Don’t let lung cancer take your breath away!”
Finally, the bus company shows up… in cars. They offer to take some people in the cars while we wait for the next bus. We’re all hungry, and maybe a wee bit thirsty, but nobody wants to go. Through this “tragedy,” new bonds have been formed. This busload of strangers has become a tight group that didn’t want to be broken up.
Finally, a few reluctantly get into the cars, just as the next bus arrives. We all arrive substantially later than planned. The owners of The Old Angler’s Inn, who have graciously hosted this event, extend their hospitality even more by keeping their doors open until we have all been well fed and plied with alcohol.
So this is what I love about this group. Every person was focused on what they could get out of the moment, not on what went wrong. A potentially ruined evening turns into one of the highlights of the weekend. Warm friendships are forged over events that would sour the entire weekend for people who aren’t blessed with the gift of perspective.
I recently saw someone’s blog post that said, “If cancer is a gift, can I return it?” Sure I’d like to return my gift, now that I’ve had it for a while. But this little disaster, and these great people, reminded me what a gift it has been.
Here’s to the gifts in your life, whatever they may be.
Love,
Dann
Love and Trash
Friends and Family,
Things are pretty spectacular right now, and only partly because of trash.
I know that isn't what you would expect me to say when I'm telling you about a trip to Hawaii. You might be expecting me to tell you about the sunny, breezy, tropical weather, or the warm water that has been perfect for body surfing and boogie boarding. Maybe you're thinking I'll tell you more about the five mile sunrise walks on the beach with Genevieve, where we have the beach almost to ourselves.
You would be right to guess all of those things. But the trip gets much better.
The stars aligned so that my son Mike and his wife Victoria were able to join us. Since Mike hasn't lived with us since he was a troubled teen, and since he hasn't even lived in the same state as we have for the second half of his life, this time has been special.
It's pretty obvious from this picture where Mike gets his muscular build.
We've had a chance to hear about Mike's and Victoria's accomplishments and challenges as missionaries for the past four years in the Philippines. Making a dad even more proud, it would be hard not to see the love in his relationships with his wife, Victoria, with his children (unfortunately not with us), and with everyone around him. It's been a special time, a chance to reconnect. This time of love and sharing has been a father's dream.
This time with Mike and Victoria has been the richest part of our trip, but it isn't the only thing we did that left us feeling full of love. We also picked up trash.
Even with their "aloha spirit" ("love"), the Hawaiian people are still learning how to treasure their environment. We've been collecting trash on our morning walks for years, hoping that when the beaches look beautiful, everyone will want to keep it that way. It's our gift of aloha.
This is where the healing comes in. Love heals. It heals our cells, and I believe this includes cancer. It heals our soul. It holds true whether it's the love of family, the love of everyone, or the love of the world. Even if we're collecting trash, it feels good to leave the world a better place than we found it. It's all love.
So what gives you the aloha spirit? I can't wait to hear your ideas. You know why? Because your sharing will be healing for you, and for me, and for everyone else who reads this. Please share your stories or thoughts about healing love, whether it is two words or two pages.
Aloha,
Dann
We All Want to Know What the Cure Is...
My friends Chaz and Virginia often leave me with terrific ideas that ripple through my brain for weeks. This time they left me with even more. They gave me a video called "The Cure Is...?"
You think attitude is important to me? These experts in their fields take attitude to a whole new level. Bernie Siegel (my favorite), Bruce Lipton and others show how our thoughts impact our cells, which impact our health. I am always looking for whatever I can do to continue to beat cancer. "The Cure Is...?" gave me more ideas, more motivation, and more hope. I made a couple of important changes in my everyday life immediately after seeing this video.
This metaphysical approach isn't right for everybody, but if you're curious, go to http://thecureismovie.com and decide for yourself.
It's Complicated.
Friends and Family,
Have you ever had times when you just knew that everything was going to go your way, except for maybe one little niggling doubt? That’s how it was for me before my CT scan last week. I was feeling great, with no real doubts. Except that I was irritable for two days before my scan. Hmm…
It was easy to feel optimistic because my back has been feeling better and my lungs are feeling great. I’ve been able to run around the gym like a 50 year-old. I would have said like a 25 year-old, but hey. Let’s be real.
I was feeling faster than a speeding bullet…
"Bullet"
More powerful than a locomotive…
And able to leap tall buildings in a single bound.
For those of you who didn’t grow up when Superman was on TV in black and white, those words are a direct quote from the announcer at the beginning of every show. The power of feeling good was intoxicating! I was feeling like Superman!
It’s times like these that I forget about the future, feel great for now, and don’t worry about what will come next.
In case you haven’t guessed, my scan results were spectacular! That means they were unchanged. Six more weeks of still having cancer in my lungs, but not having it grow, seems pretty spectacular to me!
So why was there still another niggling little something bothering me? What was it?
Digging a little deeper, I figured it out. I was feeling guilty.
I know, this doesn’t seem to make any sense. Except it does.
It's complicated. First, there are the recent deaths of two people I know who had cancer. One was more of an acquaintance to me, but the other person, Larry, had become important to me in a very short period of time. He was making a remarkable recovery from esophageal cancer, and I had been vicariously thrilled at his successes with cancer – and with life. His passing was sudden and unexpected. I hurt for him, I hurt for his family, and I hurt for me.
More recently, my buddy Craig, who has been on AZD9291 longer than me, has had some growth in his cancer. He is still in the process of working out with his doctors how they will manage this change. If you have a minute to pop by https://craigblower.wordpress.com/ and say a word or two of support, I’m sure he would appreciate it.
But why should I feel guilty about being alive, while others have either passed on, or are dealing with increasing symptoms? Is it fair that it’s not happening to me? I’ve never asked the question so many people in my situation ask, “Why me?” From the first day I was diagnosed, I have believed that things randomly happen to people, just like some people are unlucky enough to die in a plane crash or when a tree crashes through their roof. However, the question I have often asked myself, and I have even asked you, is “Why not me?”
I have been telling you for almost nine years about everything you and I are doing together to help me stay alive, and yet I still feel guilty that I’m alive. That’s a little self-defeating, isn’t it? There’s a name for it. It’s called survivor’s guilt.
This is where having a great therapist comes in. Duane nailed it for me. “It sounds like you’re assuming that only a limited number of people get to live, so if you live, you’re taking someone else’s place.” Booya! That one hit me between the eyes. So this is what it means to have survivor’s guilt! Just getting this crazy logic clear in my head makes it easier to move on. Not immediately, but I'm getting there.
Why does there have to be a limited number of survivors? Can’t everybody survive? That's the goal, isn't it?
Things started looking brighter again. Let’s help everybody survive! Let’s help everybody thrive!
Tell you what. I’ll keep telling you what I think is keeping me alive, and you keep helping. Together we’ll do the best job possible to help other people see how they might do it. And as many of you have told me, the same things work if you want to live a fuller life, even if you don’t have a life-threatening disease.
For me, it all boils down to love and attitude. Your love, and your supportive and upbeat attitude. My love, and my upbeat attitude. There is a lot of action behind both of these words. But for me, love and attitude are at the heart of it.
That’s one reason why I end each email by saying:
Love,
Dann
LUNGevity HOPE Summit
I'm going to Washington!
Every year LUNGevity holds a HOPE Summit in Washington, D.C. This year it is on May 1st to May 3rd, and I'm going.
I learned about the conference last year, but didn't want to go. Just like Groucho Marx once said, "I wouldn't belong to any club that will accept me as a member."
I thought that getting a couple of hundred people with lung cancer together in one place could lead to all kinds of negativity, despite the name of the conference. So I didn't go.
HOWEVER. Over the past year I have gotten a different view. I've looked at it with much more, well, hope after more contact with a number of bloggers, people in online open forums, and people who have commented on my blog. The view from here is looking pretty positive. Maybe it actually COULD be a Summit of Hope.
Craig https://craigblower.wordpress.com/ told me that LUNGevity was providing scholarships, including travel, accommodations in a fancy schmancy hotel, and a couple of meals a day to first-time conference attendees who simply apply. So I did, and, surprisingly, it was that easy. Free. No catches.
If you're interested, go to http://lungevity.org/ and click on the Events tab. This is a great site for a lot of reasons, and this conference is just one of them. Look around while you're there.
I'm going to find out who actually pays for these scholarships. I have one more reason for gratitude, and I'd like to thank the benefactor.
More Healing Sunlight
In early January I asked people to "Think of sunlight shining in on each of the little spots in my lungs, hips and spine, and let that sunshine fry each of the little critters." I've been overwhelmed by the inspiring pictures that people have sent. While some of the photos have focused on "frying the little critters," many others have been awe-inspiring healing light. So which is more healing? Killing the cancer, or having healing light? You decide.
These two beautiful photos were taken by my cousin Kevin.
This photo was taken on the fall equinox at Stonehenge. No, not that one. This one is in Maryhill, Washington. The Stonehenge may not be the real thing, but the sunrise definitely is.
This sunset photo was taken in Santa Cruz. If this doesn't inspire you to heal, what does it for you?
My Future's so Bright...
In my last entry I told you it felt like my future's so bright, I gotta wear shades. Thanks to Marika for "brightening" my day with another image that makes the picture complete. :-)
Things are going to H@%%
Friends and Family,
That four-letter “H” word is back on my mind again lately, and it’s not the one that would have gotten me in trouble in grade school.
About three and a half years ago, my company had new pictures taken of all of the brokers. Since I was just about to start chemo, the timing for a picture wasn’t the best. Should I have my picture taken with a full head of hair? If I did, then people who first saw my picture on our website wouldn’t recognize me when they met me and my shiny, pale, bald, head in person.
So should I shave my head bald? That would be confusing later, after I finished chemo, and my hair grew back.
So which H-word is the real me? Hairy or hairless? And why is this so important? Sorting this out was giving me a bad hair day.
I decided to compromise. I gradually cut my hair shorter over a few weeks, so that everyone – including me – could get used to it. Just before I had my picture taken, and before chemo kicked in, I had my final haircut. This cut left little to the imagination.
After chemo was finished and my hair grew back, Greg, one of the partners, asked me if I wanted to have my picture taken again. “No,” I said, “I like the picture. Let’s leave it as it is.” Greg kept asking over the next three years. Although my answer didn’t change, Greg was right to wonder.
I worried that I’d soon be back in chemo, and once again bald. And if that happened… well, before long they may not need any picture of me on the website. See where I’m going with this? There’s more meaning to hair than hair. I had more doubts about my future than I would care to admit. It was a lot like a couple of years ago, when I thought that there was no point in buying new underwear if I didn’t think I’d be around long enough to use it.
So why did I finally ask to have my picture retaken? It’s because of that H word. No, I’m not talking about H@%%. I’m also not talking hair. I’m talking hope.
Running laps around your life expectancy a few times can do that for you. So can having great success on a new clinical trial. Having amazing doctors that have creative ideas about how to deal with lung cancer can give you hope too , even if no cutting-edge treatments would be a fit in the near future. My future’s so bright, I gotta wear shades. Maybe it’s so bright because of all those images of rays of light zapping the cancer cells that all of you have sent me.
Here’s more reason for hope: I have been on three treatments that didn’t even exist for lung cancer patients the first time I went through cancer. Tarceva, Avastin, and AZD9291 are all new. How can that not make you more optimistic?
You can probably even see it in my picture. You know, the new, permanent one.
Maybe I can even relax a little. You know, let my hair down. Not take things so seriously.
I hope there’s reason for hope in your life, too.
Love,
Dann
New Lung Cancer Drug Approved
A promising immunotherapy drug for lung cancer, Opdivo, was just approved. It's not a magic bullet, but it is one more weapon in the arsenal against lung cancer. See http://www.cancer.org/cancer/news/news/fda-approves-opdivo-nivolumab-for-lung-cancer for a brief summary.
My hope has always been to stay healthy long enough to be eligible for whatever the next new treatment will be. With more immunotherapy drugs in clinical trial right now, every day the picture gets a little brighter. :-)
Busting Loose from Treatment - February 20, 2015
Friends and Family,
I’m so excited about this I can hardly contain myself. After approximately 1,347 trips to San Diego since September, Things aren’t going to be the same. My ratio of TPW’s is dropping dramatically. But before I tell you about my TPW ratio, I think some explanation is needed.
I was very proud when my mother, at the age of about 40, decided to go back to school. She entered a program at Marylhurst College (now Marylhurst University) that gave her credit for life experience. She had to challenge each course and prove that she knew the material through life experience. After six months of challenges, she was halfway through her junior year. She completed her degree by attending regular classes, and then went on to get a Master’s degree to boot.
I think I should follow in my mother’s footsteps and go back to Marylhurst. At least, I should do this if Marylhurst has degrees in fields related to medicine. After 35 or 40 CT scans, a handful (or two) of MRI’s, and a course of radiation treatment, I probably have enough experience to qualify as a tech. I’m also one of the few people you will meet who has seen his own skeleton, after having a full-body bone scan done a couple of years ago. Kinda freaky, that one. I wish I would have asked for a print of that scan, so I could have blown it up to poster-size and hung it up at Halloween.
I should also be able to qualify as a phlebotomist.
I know, the name is similar, but it has nothing to do with lobotomy. You may assume that I have had one of those if you have spent a lot of time talking with me, but I haven’t. You can tell because my sprch habent bin affectected.
Phlebotomists are the people that draw your blood. I have had blood draws between one and 514 times per month. A couple of times in a row the same phlebotomist hit a nerve. I jerked so hard that she jumped back, pulling out the needle and leaving my blood spurting. While it was colorful, only Genevieve could have appreciated all that red. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, and my arm still hurts. Twice was enough. Having learned from when I had a “port” in my chest for chemo, I knew there was an easy way around this. When I had a port, my doc prescribed “port cream” (lidocaine) to numb me at the injection site.
I don’t know why doctors think the needle should hurt in your chest, but not in your arm. Especially after repetitive repetition, over and over again. I was having none of it. Being naturally pain avoidant (AKA a wimp), I asked my doctor to continue prescribing the port cream for me. Now, an hour before I get poked, I apply the cream. Problem solved. I don’t even feel the needle going in. Phlebotomist qualifications? Check.
Of course, I haven’t mentioned the doctor appointments. Which (witch?) doctor, you may ask? There are plenty to choose from. I have my San Diego oncologist for the clinical trial, my OHSU oncologist that I see before I get my monthly bone strengthening (Xgeva) injections, my psychiatrist (what, you thought I was this Specimen
of Psychological Stability all on my own?), my physical therapist, and my back pain management doc. That’s not counting routine appointments to other docs for ingrown toenails, diabetes, and occasional skin weirdness.
I have spent more time in doctor’s offices than I have in Starbucks. I should at least be qualified as a Barista of Medicine (BM). I know you haven’t heard of a BM before, but that’s only because you haven’t spent as much time in doctor’s offices as I have. I know a lot about BM’s.
Back to how my ratio of TPW’s is dropping. That’s the number of Treatments per Week. Now that the cortisone injection in my back has fully kicked in, I don’t have to see the pain management doc again, and my physical therapy appointments have dropped to once every other week. All the other body parts are working right now (watch it), so there are no other extra appointments. The only remaining appointments are with oncologists. THAT is where the joy is really kicking in!
We just got back from San Diego Tuesday night. The news was – again! – excellent! My CT scan showed no growth! I was ruminating a little before this trip since the last scan showed a little growth in one spot, but there was no growth this time. Everything is stable! Not only that, but I have progressed to a new milestone in the study. From now on, the trips to San Diego are once every six weeks instead of three.
Freedom! Half as many trips to San Diego, half as many trips to my physical therapist, and no trips to the pain management specialist! I love my new TPW ratio!
Now that I have a little of my time back, let’s meet up for coffee. How about Starbucks?
Love,
Dann
Cancer Clinical Trials
Twice in the last week, I have been in contact with people whose current treatment is no longer effective. This is a critical decision point. The options seem to be:
1) Get a second opinion; or
2) Find a clinical trial that matches your specific needs.
Last week I listed my favorite blogs. On one of them, https://www.inspire.com, I found a link to a website where you can match your particular cancer (lung and all other cancers) and your specific circumstances to the entire pool of clinical trials. Here is the resource:
http://www.emergingmed.com/networks/LungCancerAlliance/
It's not perfect, but it does narrow the field a bit. It may even be useful to print out the list of possible clinical trials and bring them with you to your next appointment with your oncologist for discussion.
I hope you find this useful.
Dann
Healing Light, Swedish Style
My eyes and heart continue being opened further with the beautiful images of light that so many of you have sent.
Marika sent these stunning photos she took of the light in the evening and in the night in the Stockholm Archipelago last June.
"The sunset is around 9:30pm, followed by a picture of the bright night – taken around 11pm. I hope you can feel it :)"
I hope everyone can feel it. What healing images!
Thank you again, Marika!
Lovely Blog Award Nomination - February 9, 2015
Friends and Family,
You may have noticed that this is Award Season. The Emmy, The People's Choice, the Grammy, the Lovely... What? You haven't heard of the One Lovely Blog award? Fortunately, you didn't miss my acceptance speech. I'll start now... What? it's time for commercial break? I was just getting started!
At first I wondered what the award was about. It's not restricted to cancer blogs, so any blog is eligible. It simply means that you have been nominated by another "winner" that appreciates your blog and wants others to see it as well. To accept the award, you need to take the four steps below:
- Thank the person who nominated you for the award.A big thank you goes out to Craig Blower https://craigblower.wordpress.com/, who nominated me.
- Add the One Lovely Blog logo to your post.
- Share 7 facts/or things about yourself.
- Nominate 15 bloggers you admire and inform nominees by commenting on their blog.
It was the last item that makes the award special to me. It takes a lot of time and scouring the internet to find good blogs, so to offer you 15 good options is the benefit to you. The research involved is why it has taken me since October to respond to the nomination. I was going to procrastinate even longer, but I didn't get around to it.
After all, I still have a day job, and writing has been taking up a fair amount of my free time. So gradually over the past four months I have done my homework in order to do this award justice.
I digress. Like a good student, I will do my homework in the order assigned. Here is the Lovely Blog Logo:
Isn't it lovely? I do appreciate that it's all about heart, which to me what it's all about.
Next, here are seven facts/things about me that you probably don't know:
- Many of you have encouraged me to write a book. It may not have seemed like it, but I really was listening. I did it! The working title for my book is "Beating Cancer With Heart and Attitude."© The book is about what has kept me alive for nearly nine years, about how I have grown with a big nudge from cancer, and all the love you have shown. The content is 99% new. If any of you have suggestions or connections to get it published, I would love to hear from you.
- I have three brothers and a sister. All five of us knocked out one, two, or three of our front teeth in childhood, although my youngest brother Mike barely gave it a token effort. He merely chipped a tooth. I knocked out my front two at the age of six when I was shoveling snow, pushing the shovel in front of me until the shovel stopped -- and I didn't. I had silver teeth until I was 12 or 13.
- I lived in Australia (Sydney) for three years, back in the early 1980's. I love how Australians make a point of expressing differences with friends, believing that you aren't much of a friend if you can't be yourself. They even turned teasing each other about differences into a sport. They call it "stirring." If you hate Obama, for example, they will sing his praises and wait for you to go off. Very entertaining.
- I have webbed toes. Not all of them -- just the second and third toes on both feet. My ring and middle finger on my left hand were also webbed at birth. My parents had them separated at the age of five, because they thought other kids would make fun of me. I was in the hospital for a week to cut a little skin between my fingers... Medical care has changed a bit since then.
- My personal speed record for getting fired is three hours. It was a temporary job in a brewery in Sydney. I was fired before even taking advantage of the "beer breaks." True story: Free beer at both breaks and lunch. I was fired for pushing around a cart full of fluorescent light bulbs because I had the wrong union card. I would have just stopped, but my egregious action set off a turf war with the electrician's union guys.
- I have had about twenty-one different paid jobs. Yes, I know how flaky that sounds. Here they are:
- Paperboy
- Doberman show dog trainer
- Pooper scooper at a dog kennel
- Dishwasher
- Busboy
- Waiter
- Cook
- Cashier
- Bartender
- Probation officer
- Halfway house counselor
- Volunteer coordinator (I was paid, the volunteers were not)
- Psychologist on a mobile psychiatric crisis team in Australia
- Drug counselor
- Case manager for people with chronic mental illness
- Family therapist
- Psychiatric hospital intake coordinator
- Insurance quality improvement project coordinator
- Psychiatric inpatient therapist
- Commercial real estate broker
- Writer (Okay, so I haven't been paid for that one... yet)
For good measure, here are the temporary jobs:
- Clearing fire trails in the woods
- Placing grass seed and fertilizer on bails of hay, running them through a chipper and shooting the mix onto hillsides for erosion control
- Janitor
- Cutting down trees in suburban neighborhoods
- The brewery job
- Railroad welder's assistant
- Cleaned up an oil spill at a manufacturing plant
- Kool-Aid stands
- Door-to-door sales of cookies, light bulbs, newspaper subscriptions, and box cutters
Whew.
7. I have two adopted sons, a stepson, and six grandchildren. Matt is in Montana, and Mike is a missionary with his family in the Philippines. My stepson Aidan and his family, who live nearby in Vancouver, Washington are the ones we get to see the most often.
And now for my final duty: Tell you about fifteen blogs. These blogs don't need to be about cancer, but that is of course where my focus is these days. Here are my favorites, in no particular order:
https://craigblower.wordpress.com/: Craig’s blog: Lung cancer with a dose of humor and an upbeat attitude. And graphics that make me laugh.
http://lil-lytnin.blogspot.com/: Tori Tomalia’s blog: Full of warmth, thoughtfulness, and a deep look into the experience without any self-pity.
http://thrivingwithlungcancer.com/: Beth's blog name says it all.
http://lisa.ericgoldman.org/: Lisa goes right to the heart of key issues confronting people with lung cancer.
http://lunaoblog.blogspot.com/: Living through Luna's experiences, like the false positive on a test of cancer growth... and what she learns from it.
http://www.tamiboehmer.com/: Tami is inspirational not only for her own long-term survival, but also for all of the stories she shares about others who are doing the same. Straight to the heart.
http://cancergrace.org/lung/: Run by professionals that are very well tuned in. They provide resources and a forum for discussions.
https://embenkickscancer.wordpress.com/updates-on-emben/: If you want to read how a young adult can pull off dealing with cancer, prepare to have your spirits lifted.
http://www.freetobreathe.org/news: Another professionally run site with great personal stories and cancer news.
http://grayconnections.net/: Janet shares not only her own experience, but also the latest research "translated from geek to patient-speak." She is doing a tremendous service for the entire cancer community.
https://celpeggy.wordpress.com/: A go-getter who is staying on top of cancer.
https://www.inspire.com/: Venerable site with just about everything you’re looking for.
http://suek.weebly.com/snippets-my-blog
http://www.linkofsupport.com/: This breast cancer support site provides education, inspiration and support with a lightness of heart.
http://lungingitup.blogspot.com/: "A 22 year-old girl beating lung cancer" who is all about living with cancer rather than worrying about dying from it.
So that's my list. If you get time, check out some of these other blogs. You will come back here, though, won't you?
Love,
Dann